MaTa SePeT

Assalamualaikum w.b.t,

      Tengah hari yang panas macam nie rasanya takde kerja lain yang boleh dibuat selain tidur jer, yer dok? Hahaha… tapi hari nie nak tukar rutin sikit. Jeles tengok blog kengkawan yang cun-cun belaka membuatkan beta ini nak meng’update’ sikit.

      Semalam aku teringat kat zaman aku kecik-kecik dulu. Peristiwa yang membuatkan aku gelak guling-guling bila aku ingat balik. Masa tu umur aku 7 tahun, masuk darjah satu. Aku pergi sekolah dengan rambut yang ditocang dua and sekali sekala sanggul sebab masa tu memang aku tak pakai tudung lagi. Majoriti budak pompuan darjah satu tak pakai tudung time tu.

Tetiba, pada suatu hari, apalah malangnye nasibku, bila ada senior-senior pompuan (tak ingat berapa orang) datang kat aku and dengan konfius nya diorang tanya, “ Adik, adik nie Cina ke?”. Erk?! Masa tu, aku geleng jer and dalam hati aku cakap ‘Giler? Aku nie Cina?’. Aku tak tau apa sebab diorang ingat aku nie Cina. Mata aku sepet ke? Maybe…

Bila balik rumah, aku cerita kat mak aku and dengan selamba badaknye dia cakap, “Lain kali, kalau orang tanya, cakap ‘ya’ jer”. *double Erk?! Lepas tu dia cerita yang masa aku baby dulu, ada tauke Cina kat Pasir Puteh kata aku nie macam anak dia. Uhuhuhuk…sepet sangat ke mata aku?? Aku tengok biasa-biasa jer pun. Eh, wait! Memang mata aku nampak biasa-biasa jer sebab aku pakai cermin mata. Tapi, bila aku bukak, ehehehe…agak sepet lar. Dah la bulu mata pendek, then kelopak mata pun macam pelik…yeah, macam cina, keh3…

Aku tak tau sama ada perlu bangga atau sedih dengan mata sepet nie. Actually bangga sikit sebab walaupun takde asal usul keturunan cina, orang kata aku cina. Ngeh3…Chinese look, orang kata. Tapi aku sedih giler bila tengok bulu mata adik-adik aku yang lebat and panjang giler. Kalah mata orang pompuan. Ada ker patut diorang kata mata lembu lagi cantik dari mata aku sebab bulu mata lembu lebih panjang dari bulu mata aku??? Aish, rasa macam nak bagi pelempang jer.

Tapi sekarang nie dah takde orang cakap aku Cina lagi sebab aku pakai spek, hehehe… 8=) Akhir kata, terimalah kekurangan dan kelebihan yang ada pada diri sendiri dengan ikhlas dan hati yang terbuka sebab EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON.

Wassalam…

NeW WaY oF LiFe

Assalamualaikum w.b.t,

Fuhh! Fuhhh! Fuhhh! Sapu habuk kat blog nie dulu,hehehe… dah lama tak blogging. Tambah-tambah lagi sekarang nie bulan puasa, takde mood nak bersastera kat sini. So, now is the end of July and there’s about a month before I start my study life.

      Okay, before that, I got an offer to pursue my study in Bachelor of Business Administration (Honours) (International Business). Ceh! Bahasa Omputih… >_<  Kalau dalam Bahasa Melayu nye, Sarjana Muda Pentadbiran Perniagaan (Kepujian) (Perniagaan Antarabangsa). Panjang berjela-jela. Kos nie under UiTM and aku dapat UiTM Puncak Alam.

      At first, rasa kecewa la sikit sebab aku dah lulus test medsi and pergi interview segala bagai untuk sambung TESL. Tapi Allah Maha Berkuasa. Dia dah tentukan yang hala tuju aku kat tempat lain. Aku reda jer, lagipun dulu aku pernah rasa nak tinggalkan dunia TESL and rasa yang aku dan TESL memang tak sesuai. So, now is the time.

      Mula-mula kos bisnes nie tak begitu menarik perhatian aku. Tapi, bila aku search info pasal kos nie, sedikit demi sedikit aku mula tertarik and tak sabar nak start study. “Apa salahnye cuba benda baru” and “Kalau orang lain boleh buat, kenapa aku tak boleh??”. Nie lar kata-kata yang aku cakap pada diri aku sendiri, lebih kepada nak bagi semangat sebab kena kat Puncak Alam sebenarnya, kih3… ^__^.

      Okay lar, tu saje. Bye2 ~(^_^)~

# Asyik mimpikan Mr.Tea jer.

Wassalam…

LoVe

Assalamualaikum w.b.t,

Love is the energy,

Love is a mystery,

Love is meant to be true,

Love is a part of me,

Love is the heart of me,

Love is the best thing we do…

Do you think that these are the meaning of love? For me, love is something that is subjective. It cannot be described, but can only be felt. As what I know, love is something that makes me happy and smile.

Yes, I haven’t experienced being couple, but it doesn’t mean that I never be in love. Come on guys, don’t you realize that your first love is your parents? And not your monkey love? Kih3 >_<

Okay, I should stop this… I don’t have much to talk about love. What I know is that without my family’s love towards me, I can’t face the upcoming challenging days.

Wassalam…

# Keep on waiting -_________-

ScHooL LiFe

Assalamualaikum w.b.t,

      Hye! Hello! Hola! Ngeh3…what the tuttt… Actually, I’m quite lazy and don’t feel like updating this blog lately coz I don’t know what I’ve done, but this blog has become so messy. Don’t you feel it? Well, that’s okay coz I’ll reorganize this blog soon.

      Today, let’s ‘talk’ about school life. Is your school life so interesting? Lively? Fun? Having many friends? Having monkey love? Muahhaha…that one is out from this topic! Let me tell you an uninteresting story about my school life.

      Starting from when I was 5 and 6 years old, I got my first education at Tabika Perpaduan Sri Aman, just near my house. When I was five, I don’t like to go there because I was afraid of the new environment. I don’t have friend and seriously, I asked my mom to accompany me there. She had to sit beside me in the class and I’m the only one who entered the class with mommy. Haha…that’s a special case, I think! And yeah, just like what I said, I don’t have any friend there. So, no wonder I don’t remember them.

      Then, when I was seven, I entered SK Padang Pa’ Amat. That was also a completely different environment where there were many seniors (yeah, since I was still in standard one!). In year one, I was placed in the first class with my cousin. So, I had a friend with me (since my mom didn’t accompany me anymore). What I can remember is that I was a silencer/ silence person and I asked my cousin to buy me food at the school canteen. And I bet that she might feel burdened. Hehehe...sorry *_*

          When I was in standard four, I was selected to be a school prefect and can you imagine how a silence prefect looks like? Yeah, it looks like me, for sure! Since I was separated from my cousin coz she had to enter the second class, so I didn’t go to the canteen up until I was in standard six. That was bcoz I only got close friends when I was in standard six. Such a sad childhood story!

    Then I entered SMK Kamil in 2006. Yeah, I was a ‘nobody’ again up until I was in form 3 bcoz I didn’t have any close friends. Then, my life started to be interesting when I was in form four. Seriously, I don’t regret for staying in the second class. That year had taught me what LIFE is. Plus, that was the year that introduced me with such great best friends.

So, that’s all about me. How about yours?? I know that your stories are better that mine, right? No doubt, that’s for sure, hahaha…bye ^_^

Wassalam…

# He’ll leave me again. Adios Mr.Tea TT_TT

A DaY To ReMeMBeR

Assalamualaikum w.b.t,

       

2 hari lagi before aku punya interview. Nervous kott…apasal nie hah? Selalunya tak macam nie. Maybe sebab aku tak well-prepared lagi. Lagi satu, kebanyakan kawan-kawan aku yang dah lepas interview nie cakap, diorang kena soal pasal Bersih 3.0. Haishh…aku nie dah la KO kalau masuk bab politik and sejarah. OK tak kalau aku cakap macam nie- “I’m sorry Sir/Madam, but I’m not interested and expert in politics and history. So, that’s why I always get C for History in every exam (that’s the FACT)”. Ahh, lantak lar. Jangan sampai kena nyanyi sudah!

      Meh nak rewind balik kenangan aku pergi interview untuk Asasi TESL kat UiTM Machang, tahun lepas. Aku punya interview sepatutnya start pukul 8 pagi. So, aku, parents and sepupu aku (bekas mahasiswi UiTM Machang) bertolak around pukul 7 pagi. Masa tu ada lar nervous sikit sebab takde kawan sekapal. Bila sampai jer, kereta abah aku pulak buat hal. Aku kena jalan kaki pergi fakulti pendidikan. Nasib baik ada sepupu aku yang expert pasal jalan shortcut kat situ. Lepas tu, aku jumpa sorang ex-schoolmate kat sana. Kitorang kena kat bilik yang sama.

      Pagi tu kitorang kena jawab test bertulis dulu. Disebabkan ramai orang, so aku tak dapat tempat duduk kat dalam dewan yang sepatutnya. Jadi,aku terpaksa jawab test tu agak terlambat sikit daripada yang lain. Selesai test, aku kena tunggu giliran untuk interview pulak. Masa tu aku dapat nombor 40, calon yang last untuk sesi pagi. Disebabkan lama sangat menunggu sambil berdiri, aku dah hilang rasa nervous.

      Bila aku check balik dokumen yang kena bawak, tetiba…alamak! Aku terlupa bawak surat beranak aku! Mula-mula tu rasa gabra jugak lar, tapi lepas tu…ahh! Lantak lar. Average masa yang diambil oleh seorang calon ialah 20 minit. Turn aku sampai pada pukul 4 petang. Bila masuk jer bilik penemuduga, diorang tanya,“Are you nervous?”. Then dengan sempoi nye aku jawab,“No”. Memang dah tak nervous pun. Aku set dalam fikiran aku yang aku pergi sana just untuk berbual-bual dengan pensyarah sana jer. keh3… senang citer!

      Masa tu ada 2 orang interviewers. Sorang lelaki and sorang lagi pompuan. Mula-mula interviewer yang lelaki suruh aku cerita pasal diri sendiri. Lepas aku bagitau yang hobi aku membaca, terus interviewer pompuan tanya aku baca buku BI or BM. Dengan ragu-ragunya aku jawab both. Then dia tembak aku dengan soalan “what title of the latest English book that you’ve read?”. OMG! Aku blurr kejap. And aku pun jawab “sorry, but I don’t remeber”. Then dia tanya lagi, “when was the last time you read English Book?”. Aku jawab,“last December” (masa tu bulan April). Dia balas balik, “how come you can’t remember the title? It was just a few months from now.” Bila dah tertangkap and terperangkap macam tu, takde apa yang lebih baik selain SENYUM. But bila aku ingat-ingat balik, memang aku ada baca buku BI, tp komik,hehehe...

      Lastly, interviewer lelaki tanya aku punya pilihan lain dalam UPU. Lepas tu, dia cakap, “Is it okay if you don’t get this course? Because depends on your other choices and SPM results, I think that you can get better courses than this”. Aku terus jer jawab 'yes' masa tu sebab aku tak minat sangat TESL nie. Harapan aku lebih kepada Farmasi. Tapi nak buat macm mana, dah rezeki aku kat situ. Bila keluar jer, aku tengok jam. 10 minit jer?? hahahaha…untung jugak dapat last.

      So, itulah kenangan yang tak berapa nak manis sangat berkait dengan TESL. Itu lah titik tolak yang membawa aku kepada TESL. Aku tak tau kenapa aku pilih TESL. Dulu, masa pilih kos untuk UPU lepas SPM, aku langsung tak fikirkan TESL. Masa kali terakhir aku kemaskini, tetiba aku pilih Asasi TESL UiTM. Dah lar aku letak as 1^st choice lagi. Mungkin ini jalan hidupku. Semuanya bermula dengan Asasi TESL.

Wassalam…

A GoLDeN cHaNcE

Assalamualaikum w.b.t,

      EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON. Now, I totally believe in those words. Actually, April 2012 has taught a really important lesson to me. God never give us everything that we want, but He will give something that’s better than that.

      As I said in my previous entry, bulan April lepas memang betol-betol penting untuk aku. Bermula dengan keputusan MUET, diikuti dengan result final, then MEdSI (tiga hari berturut-turut). Dua hari selepas tu, senarai calon yang berjaya menghadiri temuduga IPG/ Maktab pulak keluar. Dalam masa lima hari tu, aku memang sedih sangat-sangat sebab semua yang aku nak tak dapat. MUET= Band 3 (markah lagi rendah dari yang first), Result pun lagi rendah dari sem 1 and seterusnya aku kena test MEdSI yang menentukan sama ada aku dapat kos TESL kat UKM or not(seriously, aku tak letak harapan untuk lulus disebabkan aku punya pointer and MUET). Hari Isnin, bila list IPG keluar, rasa kecewa aku bertambah-tambah sebab harapan aku untuk jadi cikgu/pendidik dah takde.

      Siapa yang tak rasa kecewa bila tak dapat apa yang diinginkan. Bukan hanya 1, tapi ketiga-tiga. Masa tu aku rasa yang aku nie betol-betol USELESS and HOPELESS. Mana tak nya, hati aku yang tengah retak nie terus pecah berderai bila parents aku pun turut rasa kecewa dengan aku. When something bad happens, everybody will blame others, but nobody will blame themselves. Masa tu aku try redha and set in my mind yang memang bukan rezeki aku. Aku dah cuba buat yang terbaik and actually, I’ve tried harder than first sem. But, hati aku tetap degil. It took about a week for me to calm down.

      But last Saturday, it was a really great day. It was such a present to console me after having a great sadness. Alhamdulillah, I’ve gotten a chance to attend an interview for pursuing my study for degree in TESL. I’ve past the MEdSI test! Yahoooo!!! Kali nie aku memang bersyukur sangat-sangat sebab memang tak ramai budak TESL yang pass MEdSI. Setahu aku, TESLians yang kat Kuantan, ramai tak dapat, even though diorang dapat Band 4 and Pointer tahap Dekan. Kalau dah rezeki, memang takkan ke mana. I’m not proud of myself, but I think this is a great chance for me. I’ll do my best in the interview, InsyaAllah…

Wassalam…

#Mr.Tea...excited to meet you~

SpeCiaL MaY

Assalamualaikum w.b.t,

      My last entry was posted in April and today is 14^th May. Dah lama kan? Malas bebenor rasanya tangan nie nak menaip, ditambah pulak dengan line broadband yang super slow. Takde mood jadinya nak post kat blog nie.

      Since it’s May, everybody will celebrate Mother’s Day and Teacher’s Day. Yesterday, most of the people celebrated Mother’s Day, including my Fb friends. Ramai yang wish Selamat Hari Ibu beserta ucapan yang panjang berjela-jela kat wall diorang. Me? I’m excluded.

      Yes, it seems like they really appreciate what their mothers have done. But, do they really mean that? I wonder, dalam ramai-ramai yang wish tu, berapa kerat jer yang wish verbally kat mak diorang? And yes, I admit it, memang agak segan rasanya nak wish depan-depan dengan mak sendiri. My face will turn to red and it feels like I wanna put my face in my pocket or throw it away at that time.

      I don’t celebrate Mother’s Day yesterday because for me, everyday is Mother’s Day. It’s not fair if we just treat our mothers specially only in a single day every year while they try their best to comfort us EVERYDAY. So we don’t have to wait until May to wish Happy Mother’s Day to our mom and make her happy, right?

Wassalam…